They love me. Edward's parents are charming and funny, and I definitely see where he gets his good looks. We eat and talk for hours. I learn that they met in high school and married after they graduated, ignoring the advice that they should wait until after college. Thank goodness they didn't wait because Rose came soon after they were married.I get to talk about my family and schooling and eventually before the night was over, I know that I am going to fit right in with them.
"So what do you think , baby?" Edward asks as we get changed for bed.
"I think they are great. I wanna get to know more about them." I say leaning over to kiss him before I climb into bed. "I also see why you're so damn beautiful. Daddy is hot." I giggle once he is lying next to me.
"Is that right?" He laughs and rolls over to tickle me. "You think my dad is hot, huh? Maybe I should let him know how you feel so that you two can live happily ever after."
He tickles me until I squeal and his kisses swallow the noise. He squeezes me to him and kisses my hair. "Thanks for inviting me to come with you tonight, Eddie. I had a really good time."
"You're welcome. Thanks for coming to meet my crazy parents, and I hope you won't hold anything that happens tomorrow against me. You haven't seen them dance yet." He laughs and starts to kiss along my jaw.
"You tryin' to get lucky in your parent's house, naughty boy?" I say, trying not to moan as his hand finds my center.
"Uh huh. I'm totally trying to get lucky. How am I doing?" He asks, sliding two fingers inside.
Now I can't stop the moan that escapes, I try not to sound like a porn star, but I don't think I'm succeeding. "You're doing so good. I think you may just get what you want."
"I'm so glad to hear you say that, baby. I need to be inside you." He pulls my camisole over my head and positions himself between my legs.
My feet move to pull his boxers down and his lips move to my nipple. His tongue circles and pulls it into his mouth.
"Edward... we have to be quiet... you parents." I barely push the words out before another moan makes it's way past my lips. "God, don't stop doing that." He laughs against my skin, but he doesn't stop.
"I know, Bella. I can be quiet, can you?" His tongue finds my ear.
"You know I can't but I'm really gonna try."
I feel him push into me so softly and gently I sigh. His breath heats my skin and I use everything I can to pull him closer to me. My nails scrape lightly down his back and his teeth mark my shoulder. He envelops all of my senses, and I never want it to end.
"Are you okay, baby girl?" he ask, never slowing the movement of his hips. When I don't answer him right away, he stops and looks into my eyes.
"I'm fine, just over whelmed. I love you so much, Edward, and being here with your parents makes me feel like we are real. Like this is as important to you as it is to me." Tears roll down my cheeks and I swipe at them.
He shifts us so that I am straddling his lap and we are face to face. "Did you ever question that, angel?"
"I never realized it before, but I think I did. Just a little. I know you love me and I believe you when you tell me that this is permanent, but I just feel so much. I don't even know how to explain it to you. It's like I need you now, and it scares me." I'm taking fast and I feel the tears falling, but I can't help it. He looks concerned and amused.
"You're crying because you need me? Then I should be crying right along with you. I need you too, Bella, so fucking much. Sometimes I can't stand it, Bella. Every day I come home from work, and for a split second I'm scared shitless that you won't be there." He chuckles and kisses my nose. "But you're always there and every single time, I thank my lucky stars. I can finally breathe when I have you in my arms. I love you, sweet girl, unconditionally and irrevocably.
I can't be still anymore. the emotion takes over my soul and my body responds. My movements are frantic- hard and fast, rushed. His breaths speed up and I hear him whimper. I know that he is close, and I am determined to take him over the edge. It's not about me in this moment. It's about showing him how he makes me feel. His love is fierce and euphoric.
I hold him so tightly that my arms begin to hurt and when I feel his arms tighten around me, I know he can feel my heart.
"Bella." My name leaves his lips in a whisper. It's soft and so sweet that it brings me to tears. "You're amazing, baby girl. I love you so much." He lays back so that we are facing each other.
"Thank you for loving me so much, baby. I hope you know how much I love you, too." I answer, stroking his cheek before my eyes close on their own.
EPOV
The next morning I wake to a soft and persistent knocking at my bedroom door. My mom. I get out of bed and make sure Bella is covered up before I slip out in to the hall to talk to her.
"Good morning, Edward. Sorry I woke you but the caterers will be here soon, so if you guys want breakfast you better get down stairs soon." She ruffles my hair and pulls me down to her so she can kiss my cheek.
"Okay, let me try to wake Bella and we'll be right down. Do you need our help with anything today?" I ask, knowing that she has everything taken care of. She always does.
She gives me a smirk that I know I inherited and swats at my chest. "You know good and well that everything is all set for tonight. Thank you for asking, though, son. See you down stairs," she calls as she walks away.
I crawl back into bed and wrap my arms around my girl. I kiss her neck and start to laugh when she doesn't even stir. "Bella, wake up. My mom's threatening us with starvation if we don't get downstairs before the caterers get here."
She starts to move and for a minute, a sleepy smile lights up her face. As soon as I see it, it's gone. Her eyes are wide and she jumps out of bed. One hand is on her stomach and one is covering her mouth.
"Oh my God. Bathroom... Edward! Open the door for me!" Her cries are muffled and she's running around in a circle for whatever reason. The color has drained from her face and I can see a sheen of sweat developing on her forehead.
I jump out of bed, open the door and push her down the hall towards the bathroom. We barely make it inside before she is on her knees and emptying her stomach into the toilet.
"What the hell, Bella? Are you okay? What should I do?" I freak out a little bit but manage to hold her hair back.
Of course she doesn't answer me. I stand there feeling helpless and a little nauseous myself. Finally, after what seems like forever, she sits back and takes a deep breath. I let go of her hair and move to the vanity to look for an extra toothbrush. I set some supplies out on the sink and try to calm my fast beating heart. I admit to myself that I'm scared. She's not talking to me and when I look back at her, I see that her shoulders are shaking. She's crying.
"Can you give me a minute, Edward? I want to get cleaned up. Wait for me in the bedroom?" she asks between soft sobs.
"Okay, babe. I love you," I say before closing the door behind me.
After what seems like for fucking ever the door to the room opens and I look up to see the pale, tear stained version of the face I love so much. I open my arms and she curls up on my lap.
"Are you okay, love?" I ask, rubbing her back gently.
"I don't know. I feel sucky and now I have to go down and hang out with your parents. I can't be charming and sucky at the same time, Edward." She looks up at me, her eyes pleading.
"You don't have to do anything. You get back in bed and I'll go down and hang out with my folks. Everyone is going to be so busy this morning, no one will have time to wonder about why you're still in bed." I tuck the blankets around her and kiss her sweaty forehead. "I'll check on you in a little bit, bring you a soda or a cracker or whatever shit my mom is going to insist that you need."
She's asleep before I walk out the door. I'm equal parts worried and curious to see if anyone else is sick. Maybe it was something she ate last night? My theory is proven wrong when I walk into the kitchen and find my mother in my father's lap, feeding him fruit from her plate.
"Gross, you guys! What if Bella was with me? Must you embarrass me like this?" I joke, sitting down in the chair across the table from them.
"Son , this should not embarrass you. What should embarrass you is the fact that you kept us up last night with all of that ruckus you and your lady were making. I mean, seriously? You couldn't keep it in your pants for one evening?" My father questions with an all too familiar smirk on his face.
I stare at my father with what I'm sure is a look of shock. I know that he is probably telling the truth, and he and my mother heard us, yet I am waiting for him to give me some indication that he is joking. When his eyebrow raises I know that I won't be getting my wish.
"Dad... I um... I'm so sorry... I had no idea that you could hear us. Please don't tell Bella. She's already having a bad enough day as it is." I beg and I hope that they can hear the sincerity in my voice.
"We're not going to tell her, son. What kind of animals do you think we are?" My mom scoffs. "Speaking of Bella, where is she?"
"She's in bed and she's sick. I don't know if it was the alcohol or something she ate, but she was really sick this morning. I'm kind of worried," I answer.
My parents exchange a look that I'm not sure I want to analyze. They smile and the they start to giggle, fucking giggle about my girl being sick.
"Why the fuck are you two laughing? I just said that Bella is sick. You remember Bella, the nice girl you met last night, the love of my life?" They are out right laughing now, and it is making me even more upset. When I can't take it anymore, I turn and start to walk out of the kitchen.
"Wait, Edward!" My mother shouts after me. "We're sorry for laughing! Come back, son, we need to talk."
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"I can't believe I didn't think of this sooner." I rub my hands over my face and tug at my hair. After listening to my parents and their theory about Bella's illness, I'm in the passenger seat of my dad's Mercedes, heading to the nearest fucking Rite-Aid.I go inside and grab some different shit that might help with her stomach and then I head down the aisle I should be more familiar with. I search the shelves for what I need. condoms... lube... pregnancy tests. I stare in disbelief at all of the different varieties before tossing four different brands into the little basket I'm carrying. I stop buy the liquor aisle and grab a bottle of Grey Goose for the aftermath. Either way, I am going to need a drink.
We don't talk on the drive home but after we pull into my father's garage, he turns to look at me, placing a reassuring hand on my shoulder. "Edward, I know that you are freaking out. I also know that this is not something that you planned for."
"No shit, Dad." I chuckle.
"Well, here is something you may not know. Unexpected doesn't mean unwanted. Your sister was not planned, and she is one of the greatest things that ever happened to me. Fatherhood is a huge cluster fuck of unexpected. You know that. Every day I wish that you wouldn't have had to suffer as much as you have in your young life, but Bella has brought you back to life. I see my son again. For that alone, I love the girl." His smile is big and his eyes shine bright.
"I'm scared. I didn't do such a great job in the dad department last time, Dad. Ben is gone and I'm here thinking that I have no right to have another chance. I haven't done anything to deserve another chance." My voice shakes and I can feel wetness on my cheeks.
"Edward, what happened to Ben was not your fault. You loved that baby more than anything in the world and that makes you a great father. Don't punish yourself or Bella for something you had absolutely no control over. If this test comes out positive she is going to need you whole. You need to give her your all. That means your whole heart." He pulls me into a hug and I know the conversation is over. "Now get in there and take care of your love."
His words make me remember that Bella is in there sick and I need to go see her. I grab my bag and jog back into the house before my dad even gets out of the car.
Upstairs, I find the room dark and Bella still curled up under the blanket. She looks so small and it tugs at my heart. The idea that she doesn't simply have food poisoning or a hangover makes me happier than it should. I sink down onto the floor next to the bed and stare at her. I eventually see her eyelids flutter and she blinks at me.
"What are you doing down there, creeper? Watching me sleep?" Her smile is sweet and sleepy.
"Just checking on you. I was worried. How are you feeling?" I get into bed behind her and pull her body close to mine.
"I feel better, I think. I'm a little groggy but that's all. My stomach seems to have settled. I'm sorry I scared you earlier, baby. I don't know what the hell was going on with me." She rubs her hands over mine, that rest on her stomach. I need to tell her what my parents and I talked about, but I don't know how to start.
"Baby, I don't think it was food poisoning or a hangover this morning but I have another guess. Do you want to hear it?" I kiss her neck and pray that she doesn't freak out.
"What's your other guess, doctor Eddie? I'm dying to hear it." She breathes, arching her back so that I can reach her better.
"Well, I was telling my parents about you being sick this morning and they seem to think that there is a good chance, that maybe you're..." I sigh and try to breathe. "...well they think that maybe you're pregnant, baby."
I feel her tense up and I pull her tighter against me. "Is that what you think, Edward? Do you think that I'm pregnant?"
"I don't know, Bella. My dad is the doctor, and he was just going on and on about it with my mom. What would you think? They talked me into it, I guess." I sigh against her neck.
"Oh my God! They think I'm a whore. You just came home for a visit with your pregnant whore! And she puked all over their clean toilet and had sex in their new sheets! Edward!" She turns to face me and I see the panic in her eyes.
"Calm down, angel! They don't think that! They were worried about you and excited talking about a baby. My dad even drove me to the drug store." I rub her back and try to soothe her.
"Really?" She blinks back tears and looks up at me. "What did you need from the drug store? Did you get me some Tums or ginger ale?"
"I got you both, babe, but I got a few other things. Well, I got you like four brands of one thing. You want to see?" I cradle her face and kiss her cheeks.
"Are you trying to sweet talk me into taking a pregnancy test, Eddie? You want to do this here?" She smiles and kisses my nose.
"Are you kidding me? Yes, I want to do this here! I want to know, don't you?" I hover over her and kiss her all over her face. Hearing her giggle makes my jeans tight in all the expected places, and I can't help myself from grinding against her.
Bella's laughter turns into sighs and she pushes her hips against me. "This is how we got into this predicament in the first place, baby. Now, get off me. I have to pee and I guess I have some tests to take. Come with me?" She sits up slowly and pulls me with her.
BPOV
"Don't watch me pee! I can't do it if you stare at me! Get in the shower... or at least turn around. And turn the faucet on so you can't hear me!" I'm hopping from foot to foot and jumping up and down. I know I'm going to pee my pants if I don't get them down quickly, but I'm horrified by the idea of him seeing me do it.
"Bella I'm going to have to hand you the sticks! You can't get them while you're going! You'll run out of pee!" He is laughing at me and it's making me laugh, which is making me have to pee even more.
"Fine, but turn around." He does and I sit down. I hold the first stick between my legs, and throw it on the floor reaching for the next. We repeat this process four times and Edward dodges the flying sticks, laughing the entire time.
I pull my pants up and flush the toilet. I move over to the sink slowly. I do my best not to look at the sticks lined up while wash my hands. "That was gross," I say, wiping my wet hands on the front of Edward's shirt. "What's the verdict?" I wrap my arms around his waist. "I can't look." I bury my face in his chest.
"Bella, I just want you to know that no matter what these little sticks full of urine tell us, nothing is going to change. We will get through whatever it is together." He kisses my hair and I feel him lean over to look at the tests.
"Well?" I ask when he stays silent for longer than I think is necessary.
"Well... I think we need a bigger place, baby girl." I can hear his voice shake and I can't believe what he is saying. I look up and find him smiling down at me.
"Really? A baby?" I can't stop the tears that are falling. I feel excited and scared and overwhelmed. I'm happy, so happy. My hands go to rest over my stomach and Edward squeals like a girl. He lifts me and spins me around.
"Our baby! Holy shit, Bella!" He puts me back on my feet and kneels in front of me and stares at my stomach. "Our baby is in there. What the fuck are we gonna do?" He looks up at me with teary eyes and a smiley face.
I run my fingers through his hair, and try not to laugh at him. "We are going to love each other and learn everything we can about being good parents. And we are going to love this baby so much that as soon as it can talk it is going to tell us to stop!" I pull him off the floor and throw my arms around his neck. "I love you so much, Edward. Tell me we're going to be alright," I whisper.
"We are going to be fine, angel, I am going to take such good care of you." He kisses me and it's hard and needy. I can feel him smile and I can feel the vibration of his laughter.
My clothes are coming off and his clothes are following mine into a large pile on the floor. He pushes me towards the bathtub and turns the shower on. We kiss and touch until the steam makes our skin wet and before I know it, we are making love in his parent's house... again.
I can't wait to see your face everyday
I can't explain the way I feel when I'm around you
There's a space in my heart that belongs to only you
And no one else in this world comes close to you
Do you understand what I'm saying
Do you understand me
Got a thing for you and I'm not playing
It's something I need to know
Baby, baby, baby
Tell me do you really love me
Baby, baby, baby
Will you always be there for me
I can't live without your lovin
Baby can't you see
Baby, baby, baby
Tell me do you love me now
Tell me do you love me now
I can't imagine how my life would be without you
I don't know if I'd survive another day
No pressure but I'd love to keep you safely
Promise me it's real
And that you would never fake it
Do you understand what I'm saying
Do you understand me
Got a thing for you and I'm not playing
I'm not playing
I'm not playing
Love me baby, love me baby
Nothing else don't matter
Your love is all I'm after
Ooh I need to have ya
I don't need no other man
You're the one my heart demands
I'm your girl
You're my world
Please don't let me down
Don't let me down
Tell me do you really love me
Baby, baby, baby
Will you always be there for me
Baby, baby, baby ~ Joss Stone
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